Saturday, March 26, 2016

Love is eternal

Image from Twitter

I feel truly blessed to have known such great loves in my life.  Even when they are gone, their love still fills me with a warm feeling of being cherished.

Today I remember Douglas.  25 years have passed and although gone forever, you are not ever forgotten.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Corazon means heart

Image from Twitter

The last time that I spoke to my Aunt Corazon was on the 19th of March 2014 and just five days before she died.

I strain to remember if there was a hint in her voice that she knew or felt something.  It's impossible. Our conversations were always about the same things and about the same people. 

Every time we speak with anyone, it never occurs to us that it might just be the last time we talk to that someone.  

I don't always think of my Aunt Corazon but when I do, it stops me in my tracks for a moment.  Like today on the anniversary of her death and it doesn't seem as if it's been that long and I still miss her.

It's two years already and I still feel her love for me.  

I think this is what real love is all about.  A person loves you so much in real life that even when they are gone, you still feel that love from beyond.

I hope it works both ways and that she can also feel my love for her wherever she may be now.

Monday, March 21, 2016

57 years today

Image from Twitter

It was a lovely surprise that the children conspired, with Stephen, to appear suddenly at nearly 2 am on Saturday morning.  There was a flurry of messages going on between them without my knowledge. Certainly a well-kept secret because I was totally taken aback when they arrived.  

I was not at all in a celebratory mood.  I hardly ever make a fuss over my birthday.  It's just another day for me.  This year I did find my thoughts drifting to my dad who died at the age of 57.  And now I'm his age!  He seemed so much older than I feel now.

But the kids always bring a buzz with them.  Their youth and zest for life is catching.  For this reason alone, I did feel thankful and blessed that they came.  As I commented to a friend, "money cannot buy" the presence of my nearest and dearest. It's a present in and of itself.  

As the day comes to an end, it's wonderful to just breathe in the moment and remember that life is to be lived.  

I will go to bed tonight thinking of this bible verse as I begin my 57th year around the sun!

Image from Pinterest

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Keeping guard

Image picked  from Twitter

It's easier to speak from the heart because that's where the real feelings come from.  Hence it's a good idea to guard the heart because that's also where love is manufactured.

Who wants to keep hatred so that it can grow and fester?  No one.

Yet, there are some who do this and it amazes me that even as people grow older, they never tire of drama.  And when there's none, they create it.

Guard your heart and,  may I add, your words as it determines the course of your life.  This is a good one to meditate on.  

Saturday, March 12, 2016

4 years today

Image taken in 2012

What a life-changing move it was when I left Malaysia to live in Singapore!!!

It's been a great 4 years.  Ups and downs no doubt but like the image shows, it's beautiful whichever way it flows.

The most important lesson I've learnt is that I don't need anyone to make me happy.  I know how to be happy on my own.  It's a bonus that I have a family to share my life with but I realise that I can be happy just as easily by myself.  

I'm sometimes alone. Stephen is at work and the kids are in Malaysia but I am always able to fill my hours with things to do.  I still reluctantly go to bed at nights.  But I know I need to sleep. :)

As Stephen likes to say, "I'm sometimes alone but never lonely".  

~ ~ ~ 

Tuesday, March 01, 2016

Just happy thoughts

Image from WWW

It never fails.  Eric's birthday comes along and someone will tell me that it's his birthday. Would I forget?  Ever??  

Thankfully I can shrug off the reminder from the well-meaning relative and chalk it up to the fact that people care to remember.

Just like that and another year has gone by.  It's a wonderful thing that we are able to move on even when we never thought it possible.  

The important thing is that we know where he is now.  It's what makes me happy.