I miss them all.

 

Remembering all those we once loved

and who have gone on before us.

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Tony Soliano Snr

It's not strange that my father had a huge impact on my life, whether he knew it or not and also whether I realised it then or now.

There are many moments, I replay in my mind, of just the two of us when no one else was at home.  Private and precious conversations that are mine.  I also hear the comments in my head, of people repeating what he had said to them about me. It all makes me smile.

I miss him.  I miss him in a very nice way.  

Breathing in and out

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I had not wanted to write anything today. I thought that maybe it's just better to remember quietly and keep the thoughts close to my heart.

But three-quarters of the day has passed and still my mind drifts to my father who passed away twenty-four years ago today.

Much as I tried to stay busy, walking around and eventually baking a cake to keep occupied, I still wondered about my dad.

There are so many questions about death and answers are still unknown.  Perhaps that is why people are never really able to forget.  Some can, I guess but for me, it's still difficult and every anniversary brings a sadness that stays for awhile.

Today, as I breathe in and out, I think of my dad again and again.  No point fighting it.  

The shadow of your smile

This one was on someone's FB page recently and it triggered such a nice feeling. I grew up with this song playing in the background.  I remember copying the words down and looking for the notes, on the piano, with one finger.  Many songs bring back memories of my father.   This is just one of them.

I was very young, not even a teenager yet, when my dad went away to Vietnam to entertain the US troops.  Then he was in Australia for awhile.  Whenever I thought of him, this song used to play in my head.  Today, it is because I remember the shadow of his smile, now that he is gone.

~The shadow of your smile when you are gone

Will color all my dreams and light the dawn 

Look into my eyes my love and see 

All the lovely things you are to me 

Our wistful little star was far too high 

A tear drop kissed your lips and so did I 

Now when I remember spring 

All the joy that love can bring 

I will be remembering

The Shadow of Your Smile~

Happy Birthday, D.
Love and miss you more each day.