And I made a decision to stop because this blog isn't just for remembering people who have gone but it is also to enjoy the ones who are still with us.
I know I've said that I write for the future me. When memories start to fade, I can dive into my blog and re-read some of the events that have made an impact on me. Hence, I must not get into the habit of only writing when someone dies. I must start writing about the good things that are around. The fun people that are in my life. There is much to be grateful for despite and in spite of Covid-19 still raging in our midst.
I've been doing practically nothing since the April 2020 circuit breaker in Singapore and since there is no travelling, I've been indoors almost all of that time. Most people would have gone mad but not me as I have become slightly introverted. Or maybe it is the opposite effect kicking in after having had to go out nearly every day for almost all of my life. Either it was because of work, duty or even a holiday, I was, shall I use the word, forced to go out. Now there are days when I don't even step outside the door. While people consider it a punishment, I didn't, at all, find it unpleasant.
There is so much to do at home. There's housework which is never-ending. We decide when to stop, that's the truth. There's Netflix and that too is a slippery slope once you get immersed in a series. And books, but I've not been reading much. I don't really know the reason why. I tell myself it's the print that I find too small for comfort. I tried online books but that too, didn't have the same effect that reading always had for me. Then there's news which I skim through nowadays because it can be bleak and depressing. I just keep abreast of what's happening in the world. It's not like I have to sit for any test so I just glance at headlines and only go deeper if I want more details.
Apart from doing, there's also the not-doing things like napping. I find that since I am up at 6 am on most days, I nap more often nowadays. When I used to sleep in, I didn't really nap much. But again, who's checking and I nap as I please. There's joy in being able to do it at any time. Those dozing off in my chair times are the best. It is a luxury as I can still remember fighting off sleepiness and tiredness when I was working!!!
Yes, to some, my lifestyle is a kind of nonsense as I just let one day slide into the next. But isn't that the goal of many! To eat, drink and be merry is what people say we need to do!
Really it is simple now for me. Don't complicate life.
If I get through one day, it's enough.
At my age, there are no more dreams to chase or goals to achieve.
I just want to be healthy, happy and whole.
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