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Long ago when the pain of losing Eric was still sharp and intense, a priest wrote to me saying that, for Eric, the best place to be, if not with me, is in heaven. It was most comforting to read those words and it kept me going for days, months and even years. I still remember holding the unexpected aerogramme which came from India! I looked up the bible verses that were mentioned. I read and re-read them hoping for some relief.
"No more pain for him", I reminded myself.
"Rest beyond my comprehension", I thought inside my head.
It's really a difficult thing to be trapped between wanting your baby boy in your life and knowing he's in heaven. At two years, where else would he be after dying?
Some years ago, when I least expected it, my godson, Greg told me that since Eric died when he was so young, he must already be a general in heaven. That made me smile and I felt so glad for the kind words from a sensitive soul to know how to stretch across the miles to send love and a virtual hug. Until today, I remember where I was standing when I saw that SMS message. I had to stop because my eyes teared up and I wanted to blink them away before anybody saw me.
Isn't it amazing that sometimes people do or say things that can touch our lives in such a far-reaching way? They may not even remember it but what's important is that I haven't forgotten.
While today I feel a twinge of sadness, as I always do, I also remember these two moments when a simple gesture of humanity touched me so deeply and helped soothe an aching heart.