Happy Anniversary! Also my 100th post on this blog.

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No, it's not an actual Anniversary!  It's just one that exists inside my head.  21 January 1984 is a date that I can't forget.  It's a date that I don't want to forget.  I have no reason to want to do that.

Without sounding too dramatic, here's some background.  I was married before.  On this date, I tied the knot with a man that I had known since I was fourteen years old.  When he died, my whole life changed.  It was sudden.  It was painful.

While the picture above is true for how I've always felt, it's not always how it turns out to be.  We don't always get to fulfill what we set out to do.  We don't always get that chance.  While we are at it, we should make each day count.  If you think that there is always a tomorrow, you're wrong.  It's today that counts.  It's NOW that matters.

I consider myself one of the lucky ones or blessed, if you prefer this word.  While I was afraid that I would never know happiness again, I did find it.

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It's not easy to push aside the old feelings.  It is never fun to return to a place in our past and reach for those moments.  It isn't a bad thing to do this, once in a while. Like it is, today, for me.  But I'll not let it suck me in.  I know that today is a good day to remember.  It's also a good day to be grateful for what was and, more importantly, what is.

Happy Anniversary, Doug!  It would have been 29 years today for us.  While I am not silly enough to feel sad, I am going to be silly enough to remember all the fun times we shared.   Your legacy of love lives on in the people who knew you.  This warms my heart and I am grateful that you were a huge part of my life.

I have someone new to annoy now.  I think I'm doing a good job!  Somehow I know that you are happy for me.  Somehow it is enough.